The pair share a shower with surprisingly little in the way of inappropriate behavior. At least until the tail end. When they’re toweling off, Holland pins Kell against the sink and steals a kiss.
He doesn’t want to push Kell away. He doesn’t want to pull away from Kell. He just...
Cradling Kells face in his hands, he noses against him and then takes a moment to just admire his features.
“I don’t mean to be this way. I’ve never had genuine care from someone. It’s always been betrayal and pain;” he says quietly, “And then when I was a slave it became physical pain. And I had to learn how to shut everything off. If I feel, to you, like I’m pulling away—call me on it. Because odds are, I don’t know I’m doing it.”
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He doesn’t want to push Kell away. He doesn’t want to pull away from Kell. He just...
Cradling Kells face in his hands, he noses against him and then takes a moment to just admire his features.
“I don’t mean to be this way. I’ve never had genuine care from someone. It’s always been betrayal and pain;” he says quietly, “And then when I was a slave it became physical pain. And I had to learn how to shut everything off. If I feel, to you, like I’m pulling away—call me on it. Because odds are, I don’t know I’m doing it.”