Date: 2020-05-10 11:57 pm (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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โ€œWe both know I cannot,โ€ Holland released Kells hand and looked away from his face.

They both knew that there was only one ending to this trip. And he wouldnโ€™t be coming back with them.

Date: 2020-05-11 12:12 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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Holland closes his eyes at the touch but when he opens them, he canโ€™t look away. The problem with Holland is that he can keep quiet. He can not say a word. He can not move, not flinch, not scream. But if one is quick enough they can catch glimpses of things in his eyes.

โ€œYou would have me lie to you?โ€ He mutters and tries to look away. Not pull away. But look away. The fact greedy hat he hasnโ€™t shoved Kell away by now tells more than it should.

Date: 2020-05-11 12:26 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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Foolish, he sighed inwardly and then after a long stretch of silence he brought his hands up to cradle Kells face in them.

โ€œIโ€™ll stay,โ€ And while a part of him had resigned itself to his fate; another longed to believe to words. However false they were.

Mismatched eyes raised and mirrored the others. Black to black. Green to blue. Pain to pain.

โ€œFor as long as I am able. Iโ€™ll stay.โ€

And then you and Delilah will have each other.

Date: 2020-05-11 12:38 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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The way Kell says his name surprises him. But more than that is the kiss that follows.

As close as they were. The sparks that barely shot over their skin, between them, around them like the beginnings of a thunderstorm should have been telling. However, when one has gone without any level of intimacy for as long as he hadโ€”a kiss like that is mind shattering.

The sound he breathes is shocked, surprised, and hungry all at the same time.

Bold of you, Kell.

His mouth responds eagerly. Too eagerly. Lips parting against the others, and Kell tastes the way he smells; sweet.

Date: 2020-05-11 01:04 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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Whatever this was, it needed to stop. It needed to stop.

Control was something Holland had in spades. He knew how to school himself into barely existing. Barely feeling anything. But Kell was like lightning in a bottle and the lid was barely screwed on. His arms were wrapped around him so tightly that Holland didnโ€™t want them to let go.

But he couldnโ€™t have him grabbing him like that either.

Kell ended up on his back on the cot with his wrists pinned on either side of his head, and Holland caught his breath; panting softly against the younger mans mouth, โ€œYou donโ€™t really want this.โ€ Me.

Holland didnโ€™t want this. Or at least he isnโ€™t been aware that he did until those lips were against his.

Date: 2020-05-11 01:24 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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The amount of resistance, lack thereof really, ticks the corner of his mouth in what would have been a smirk. It wasnโ€™t even a half assed attempt at a struggle and it left Holland watching Kell with a different kind of curiosity.

He felt it again. The crackle of power hidden between them. And it made him wonder...not for the first time, what it would be like to be with someone that was as hard to kill as he was. Someone who would hold their own. Surprise him. Endure.

Kell had much to learn and not enough time to learn it from him, but he was far from weak. That held its own appeal and Hollandโ€™s grip tightened. A pulse around the others wrists, relax, grip, relax...

And he was headstrong. Persistent. Aggravating. Intoxicating. Bratty.

Holland licked his lips and brushed his nose lightly against Kells, an oddly affectionate gesture before moving to whisper lowly into his ear, โ€œMore than you know.โ€

Date: 2020-05-11 01:41 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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If Holland has wanted to harm Kell, he would have done it by now. Kell was not the one that deserved that particular outcome.

His eyes closed and for a moment he just enjoyed the pleasure that came from those words. But he wasnโ€™t someone that took, not at his core.

So when he pulled back enough to hover a breaths space apart he shook his head, โ€œNo, you must give. I will not take anything from you.โ€

Even still, one hand strayed, relinquishing one wrist so that he could run his palm down the others front. His finger tips caught on seams of fabric, and nudged it up enough to feel the skin beneath.

Date: 2020-05-11 02:32 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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The timing for this couldnโ€™t be worse. Holland supposed it would do as a final farewell, in the end. A sort of parting gift. Something to remember him by. Something that didnโ€™t involve horrible meetings and betrayal.

With a short nod, Holland sat back and reached to undo his shirt, โ€œYou have to be quiet,โ€ he says and after a moment there was a hint at a genuine smirk (it was there and then I was gone again) โ€œ, Or I could gag you.โ€

Date: 2020-05-11 03:17 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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โ€œYouโ€™re full of surprises, arenโ€™t you,โ€ Holland murmurs with a depth to his voice that is very different than his usual tone.

Setting his shirts aside, he take a moment to let Kell just look. For an Antari Holland has more scars than usual. They arenโ€™t the small ones from cuts used for spell work. Theyโ€™re reminders of his past. Of things taken from him. And he doesnโ€™t care enough to shy from them. Especially now when Kells own shirt is removed. His skin is perfectly beautiful; fitting of that bright red hair and the cool blue of his eye. The stark contrast of black against ivory makes him hum low in his throat.

Kell is striking.

And apparently has zero self preservation.

Hollandโ€™s brow arches and his gaze slides from the others face to the front of his pants, โ€œTake those off for me. You wonโ€™t be needing them.โ€

Date: 2020-05-11 03:33 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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While Kell is busy admiring, or just touching, he isnโ€™t sure which, Holland shifts closer on the cot. Heโ€™s still wearing his own pants but it doesnโ€™t matter right now. There are other matters to attend to.

Long, scarred fingers trail over the sharp dip of a hip and gently wrap around the others length. The velvety warmth of him, still half soft, feels nice in his hand. Heavy and pulsing softly with life. He strokes him and noses into the red curls above Kells ear, โ€œIf we had the time...and real privacy...I could show you so many other things that magic could be used for,โ€ he murmured, then teeth teased at the shell of Kells ear, the tip of his tongue licking out briefly before he continued, โ€œWe could have enjoyed life together if things had been done differently.โ€ You could have been mine, and I yours.

Date: 2020-05-11 04:01 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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Holland almost pulls away at that. How dare he, even for a moment, even hint that he should hope for anything...

There was no time. The mistakes had been made. His end would come in the near future and that was the way it would be. It was the only way. Holland wasnโ€™t afraid of death. The mere idea of it was the most romantic bedmate heโ€™d ever had. But, now...

His hand didnโ€™t stop moving. It couldnโ€™t. If he let go he was afraid he wouldnโ€™t be able to touch him again.

Kell sounded so sincere that it made his heart ache. They werenโ€™t close. Barely friends. If even that. But the idea of not existing together was a new kind of terror.

No sing along Kells neck, he breathes in the scent of Red London, of Kell, and buried his face against his skin. Kissing it. Nipping it.

With a swallow, he pulled back just enough to look down into Kells face, to admire the way his emotions were always right there on the surface. He shouldnโ€™t have turned him away all of those years ago.

โ€œWe have this moment, Kell,โ€ he said softly, โ€œdo not burden yourself by hoping for more.โ€

Date: 2020-05-11 04:26 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] almostking
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Holland arches a brow again and just sighs, โ€œSuch stubbornness,โ€ but he steals a deeper kiss just then; a biting, hungry, needful thing laced with affection that only Kell will understand.

But when he breaks away from it with a little hum of approval, he licks Kells bottom lip and and slips a rolled handkerchief into his mouth, tying it behind his head.

โ€œBe a good boy,โ€ he says, kissing his forehead and then pushes him back onto the cot, enjoying the way he sprawls against it. For a moment he has the mind to imagine Kell like this, but on soft sheets and a bed that could fit at least three. Tied up and needy in a way that had nothing to do with escape.

He moves to stand and finally rids himself of his own pants, but the belt he holds onto; looping it one way and then another before his gaze steadies on Kells face, โ€œHold your hands out.โ€

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